I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there. Psalm 139:7-8
Can you believe that almighty God, creator of the universe, all knowing and all powerful, loves you so much that he pursues you with a relentless love?
I can, because I’ve experienced it.
And what makes God’s pursuing love so amazing is the way he works uniquely in each of our lives to draw us closer to him.
I’ve heard of people being drawn back to God through hard times, through visions and dreams, or through beautiful blessings.
He began to draw me back through a question from one of His people who was brave enough to engage me even while in my chosen darkness.
You see, I’ve been a Christian for my whole life. Well, as far back as I can remember anyway. I remember reading my Bible in my bed when I was nine or ten and tracing out family trees trying to make sense of chapters of genealogy.
Fast forward about 15 years and I’d turned my back on all of that. I quit my church, moved to a new town, started a career, and had a new boyfriend. Following God was too hard, I was too busy, and it wasn’t making me happy.
For about three years, I drifted away from God and was consumed with living life my own way. For me, it wasn’t drinking or partying, but that might be your story. For me, it was making a career and trying to enjoy what little time I wasn’t working, instead of volunteering it away at church.
Part of chasing a career was taking on some leadership responsibilities. One of these responsibilities involved a few days out of town with a coworker that I didn’t know very well…yet.
As we were driving and chatting away about trivial things, she threw a curveball and asked me how my relationship was with the Lord. I honestly don’t remember much about the specifics of the conversation. But I do remember my walls crashing down. I told her about my former life with overwhelming volunteer positions at church, I told her about my first husband, and about leaving all of that life behind for this life that I wasn’t sure about and that was leaving me unfulfilled.
She probably encouraged me to turn back to God. She might have prayed. She might have shared a story from her own life. She likely did all of those things because she is an incredible, inspiring woman who is now one of my dearest friends.
I don’t remember what happened for the rest of our drive because I was in shock. I just told another person- whom I didn’t know well at the time- some of my deepest secrets and expressed some emotions and regrets that I had been hiding from even myself.
And I remember thinking that God had found me.
Even though, of course, he was always there.
He had chased me down as I rode in a Pontiac Vibe hours from home. And it was there he began the work of drawing me back to Himself. All of my hiding. All of my work to create a new life for myself. None of it was a match for his pursuing love.
That one conversation didn’t magically fix anything. But it started my journey of repenting, learning God’s true character, and seeking His will. He has been faithful to heal my old wounds, to lavish on His forgiveness, and to redeem all the broken pieces of my heart.
Friend, I share this story in hopes that it will encourage your heart.
There’s no place you can go where God won’t find you.
He longs for a relationship with you and He never gives up.
You are pursued.